tiredness

just wanted a place to rant for a moment. how unfair is it on a new mom? not only am i supposed to be recovering physically.. which is a huge undertaking, but i am sleep deprived, my mind won't stop thinking, i am expected to breastfeed (which i want to do, but it is difficult for me, which in turn makes me feel inadequate and guilty/like a failure or there is something wrong with me), i want to have enough time and patience for jamie, i want to just snuggle with billy, i want to clean my house, i want to shower without wondering who needs me/ who's crying, i want to cook, i want to go outside, i want to have an idea of what the day will hold, i want to have a schedule! it's unfair!!!! and tomorrow billy is headed back to work. even though i'm going to have some help, i just want to stay in our house on lockdown with my family until we get all these things figured out. being a new mom is hard.. sigh. just one smile from either of my girls makes it worth it, but WHY does it have to be soo hard? once i make it past these first few weeks/months, i know it will be better.. i think i can, i think i can, i think i can..

Samantha Leigh Hemmingson

Our baby girl is here. Samantha Leigh aka Sami Leigh was born at 2:40am on Friday November 13, 2009. She was 8lbs 1.8oz and 19.5inches long. She is beautiful and has lots of dark hair just like jamie did when she was born. This labor and delivery took me by suprise, but it went soo well. I started feeling contractions around 4pm on thursday. I had gone to the dr that morning and things were normal, just another uneventful visit, so i thought i still had some time before she was here. Anyways, around 4 on thursday i laid down and took a small nap and woke up and was still having contractions and they were getting pretty intense. I told my mom and billy and i think both knew i wasn't lying, but also probably neither expected that i was actually going to have her that night. My parents came over to unload a couch they gave us for our new basement and i was having pretty heavy contractions. I made the decision i wanted to go in to the hospital. When i got here i had to wait a little bit bc apparently it was a busy night for labor and delivery, lots of moms here. Once they checked me, they admitted me and my contractions got intense. I had to wait for awhile to get my IV and bloodwork done before i could get an epidural (which i knew i wanted). After what seemed like forever and after probably scaring billy to death with my drama of the contraction pain, i got my epidural and i was happy and able to relax. They checked me about every hour, and at 2am, my water hadn't broken yet, but they said they thought i was completely dilated, and as they were checking my water did break. My dr was called immediately and once she arrived i only had to push 3-4 times, like maybe 10min total and Samantha came out! She is perfect. Apparently i was hot, so i had the room really cold and i don't think she liked that very much. I was able to hold her and talk to her, then billy took over and helped the nurse take care of her and give her a bath. That night i was able to rest and am feeling good. I'm so thankful and happy.

the basement

The basement finishing project is near completion! it looks awesome and i can't believe all the work billy and his helpers/teachers were able to complete in like 2months (billy started on September 5th)! we are very appreciative to all those who helped us out.. especially my bro Jeremy with the tedious drywall part of it.. and his wife Amber who shared him with us so much, and both our dad's for their expertice and letting us borrow stuff. Here's some picts so you can fully appreciate what it was and now is!

this is actually after billy framed it.. it was just the cement walls with insulation hanging before

Here you can see the lighting change and electrical billy and his dad did.. a big difference

Here is the insulation put back up

The beginning of the drywall.

almost all up.. and billy nice and dusty

drywall all up and one of many mudding coats on. and the ceiling texture added

The drywall done and picking paint.. went with a yellow i am still getting used to. And billy on stilts painting the stairway down.

Here's the whole thing painted.. still no carpet

Carpet started

and complete! minus furniture, but it's on the way.. we're just enjoying the openess


i'm so proud that we did it! i only have about 1 more week until our new baby girl comes.. and she could decide to come at anytime before then, so i am glad we finished it and can just enjoy it now! jamie already has been running laps down there and it's just perfect for our growing family.. our house feels like a real home and i love it.