christmas

this year we had a blizzard christmas. it was fun and exciting and at the same time made it seem not like christmas. i will say i liked having a day break in between christmases just for me to relax a bit and celebrate with my hubby and girls alone. we made it to my brother's house to celebrate with my family on christmas eve, and by then the weather was just starting to get crazy. we didn't stay as long as i wanted just bc we were worried about being able to get home ok. then on christmas day we didn't go anywhere bc the snow was so crazy. poor billy shoveled like a champ several times and his arms are killing him bc of it. i vow we will get a snowblower for next year! my sister and brother in law were here the whole week and they came over on saturday and we played a game and hung out, then on sunday we went to billy's parents to celebrate christmas with them. we had a nice time with everyone. being a mom of two often makes me feel like i don't get to actually enjoy going places bc it seems like all i do is chase after and take care of jamie and sam and don't get to really talk to anyone at all, but it's still nice to get out and see adults who don't start screaming for no apparent reason like jamie and sam like to do. ;-) jamie is turning 2 in a week.. i can't believe that, and sam will be 2 months soon.. also crazy. so i'm just enjoying my girls as much as i can, i know it goes fast, so even when i've had it, i remember that it won't always be like this and i have to appreciate this time. 2010 will be a good year, i can feel it. my resolution will be to enjoy life to the fullest..always. and of course lose weight and get in shape.. i am hoping i can accomplish that, especially since i don't have the excuse of wanting to get pregnant soon again.. i definately want to wait a few years this time!

snow day!!!

today was a snow day! billy got to work from home and it made my week. hopefully he gets to work from home tomorrow too. i love snow days.. always have. a little update.. things are going good. we are all adjusting well. jamie amazes me, i was so worried about her accepting sam, but she really has. she gives her kisses and hugs and wants to hold "baby yam". she is such a big girl, she talks and understands everything and i have to remind myself she isn't even 2 yet when i get frustrated she isn't listening or whines a little. sami is a great baby, but is pretty quirky. she makes more noise than jamie ever did, alot of grunting and growling and squealing.. just because, not even when she's pooping her pants. we're still figuring out sleep, but i am not sleep deprived like i was with jamie (in hindsight.. why did i ever complain with only 1 baby to worry about?!) she's only 3 weeks old, so i have time to get the sleep figured out.. mainly it's just that she likes to sleep on me or next to me, and bc she's so loud, we end up on the couch alot just so billy can get some good sleep bc he has to go to work and function. i've been breastfeeding her, but still haven't found it to come easy or naturally like some women do. i'm jealous of those women. she's doing good, alot better than jamie did, but i often feel like she doesn't get full from me.. mainly bc she always seems hungry, so we do supplement with formula. i'm actually proud of myself for sticking with it as long as i have. i plan to keep trying as much as i can, but i'm not going to be hard on myself, or try not to, if i do end up giving her formula fulltime. billy has been so great, i have the best husband. he is considerate and sweet and my best friend. he's seen me at my worst and still looks at me with loving eyes. i'm one lucky lady. christmas is coming quick and i'm excited, especially bc my sister will be coming back again.. maybe i can convince her to move here... tonight i'm going to try to get a family picture of the 4 of us in front of the tree.. if it turns out, maybe i'll send out christmas cards/baby announcements. that's all for now!