sledding

billy is a wonderful daddy. he does such fun things with the girls and i love it. i sent them outside to play with daddy while i stayed inside, later i went outside to see what they were up to and i found this:

such a tired baby

so sami has been going through a minor sleep issue. nothing big at all, but usually she's a champ sleeper, never wakes up, never complains when you put her down. but last week she was up at 4am for some reason, so i went in and tried to calm her down, we sat rocking together, but that lasted about 10min, then she sits back and grunts and smiles at me, which basically means "mom, i'm not going back to bed!" so we were up at 4am. she played nice and she went down around 9am for a nap. billy was working from home that day, so he shot this video while i took jamie to school. she was so tired!

since then she's been a little fussy everytime i put her down, and i've heard her crying in the middle of the night, but it's always just for a minute or so and then she goes back to sleep. i just think she's either teething or discovering her power. hopefully she'll be back to her normal self soon! especially bc i need me some good sleep!

in jamie news, we had a really rough couple weeks with her acting out and not listening. i lost my temper a few times and felt extremely guilty for it. so after that, i decided to make some more changes, just little things, like planning activities so we don't get bored and irritated, but also i started a good behavior chart. this thing has been a great motivator for her. she get so excited to earn stickers for being a big girl. and after so many stickers, she gets special treats and prizes. she has been my sweet girl again lately and i love her so much!

typical

the last week i have been having a really hard time with the girls. both are just trying my patience in every way. so in turn, i have been in a really bad mood and can cry at anytime, anywhere. billy has been so sweet and supportive. he knows like no one else how they can be. he's encouraging and helpful and lets me take time outs if i need. so last night i went to a tastefully simple party at a friends house and there was a game. well i "won" the priviledge of hosting a party. i do no want to host a party. so after the party i made my way out the door and the host was like "i'll contact you to set up your party" i replied, "well i don't think it'll happen" and she says "well you kind of have to", i said "i don't have to do anything" she said "well it was part of the game" and i just stared for a minute, then said "well bye!". i just was so annoyed. i came to the party to support my friend period, not to buy food, or "win" a prize of hosting. there is no way i am hosting a party.. especially after it going down like that. i think it's so rude! then, today i was making a smoothie. i couldn't find the stirring thing that fits into the top of the smoothie maker. (the girls like to take it and hide it from me). so i grabbed a hard plastic spatula and used that. so i loaded it up with fruit and juice and yogurt and was quite looking forward to my smoothie. well as i was blending i was using the spatula to scrape the sides and of course i put it a little too far in and it hit the blade, breaking the spatula and ruining my whole smoothie with hard plastic shrapnel. i was annoyed not so much bc of the ruined spatula (bc it was cheap) but bc of all the ingredients wasted in my smoothie! money down the drain, literally. after that, i decided i need fresh air. so do the girls. so we bundle up and go outside. we last about 2minutes. sam takes a dive. as i'm cleaning her up, i hear another scream and jamie fell. jeez. so in we go and meltdowns begin. finally now sam is napping and jamie is content with a movie. although she hobbles in here every few minutes reminding me she's still hurt. :-) all of these stories are just how my days have been going lately. i try to do a simple thing. and somehow it turns into weirdness. typical. but as grouchy and negative as i can be, i still know i'm one lucky girl and wouldn't want anyone else's life.

3

yesterday my jamie leigh turned 3. can't believe it. last week we put her big girl bed together and she has transitioned so well. she has woken a few times and yelled bc she can't find one of her many things she sleeps with, but daddy goes in and finds it and she goes right back to bed. some times she seems like such a big girl, but there are also times when she definately doesn't :-)

for her bday we made obnoxiously pink cupcakes bc obviously pink is her favorite color. she was too cute helping me add the ingredients and frosting her cupcake (more like her tongue). we went to pizza with my family like we do every week and we sang to her and she stood there with her hands over her eyes the entire time we sang. she got lots of presents and i think had a great bday. love her so much! i remember the day she was born like it was yesterday.. the day that changed my life forever. the saying that keeps replaying in my head is "the days are so long and the years go so fast" some days (ok most days lately) i feel like the days just drag and we get bored, but here i am and jamie is 3 already. sigh. i will try to make the most of the days and appreciate this time i get to be home with her, bc before i know it, she will be in school and i will be missing these days.. at least that's what everyone tells me. haha.

2011 is here

well well well... a new year, what should my resolution be? and i know i listed a bunch a few posts ago.. that was when i was in a mood to conquer the world. today, not so much. billy is headed back to work with no vacation in sight (so far) compared to the last like 3 weeks of having him around much more bc of the holidays. sigh.. i will miss it. it's so nice to just be able to have him around helping and taking turns with the girls and having my best friend to talk to all day. but i am quite thankful for his job. anyways.. back to resolutions.. i think i just want to be content with knowing i am trying to better myself everyday. i want to work on getting out of debt. maybe see if i can get a part time job. i want to make my house look pretty. i want to have a schedule for things, like cleaning and chores. but i guess mostly those are just lifestyle changes.. mostly i just hope in 2011 that it will be alot like 2010, just being blessed everyday knowing all the things we have, not even material things, but my family (the 4 of us, and our extended family), our health, a great job, and being married to my best friend. i never want to take any of those things for granted! happy 2011!