typical

the last week i have been having a really hard time with the girls. both are just trying my patience in every way. so in turn, i have been in a really bad mood and can cry at anytime, anywhere. billy has been so sweet and supportive. he knows like no one else how they can be. he's encouraging and helpful and lets me take time outs if i need. so last night i went to a tastefully simple party at a friends house and there was a game. well i "won" the priviledge of hosting a party. i do no want to host a party. so after the party i made my way out the door and the host was like "i'll contact you to set up your party" i replied, "well i don't think it'll happen" and she says "well you kind of have to", i said "i don't have to do anything" she said "well it was part of the game" and i just stared for a minute, then said "well bye!". i just was so annoyed. i came to the party to support my friend period, not to buy food, or "win" a prize of hosting. there is no way i am hosting a party.. especially after it going down like that. i think it's so rude! then, today i was making a smoothie. i couldn't find the stirring thing that fits into the top of the smoothie maker. (the girls like to take it and hide it from me). so i grabbed a hard plastic spatula and used that. so i loaded it up with fruit and juice and yogurt and was quite looking forward to my smoothie. well as i was blending i was using the spatula to scrape the sides and of course i put it a little too far in and it hit the blade, breaking the spatula and ruining my whole smoothie with hard plastic shrapnel. i was annoyed not so much bc of the ruined spatula (bc it was cheap) but bc of all the ingredients wasted in my smoothie! money down the drain, literally. after that, i decided i need fresh air. so do the girls. so we bundle up and go outside. we last about 2minutes. sam takes a dive. as i'm cleaning her up, i hear another scream and jamie fell. jeez. so in we go and meltdowns begin. finally now sam is napping and jamie is content with a movie. although she hobbles in here every few minutes reminding me she's still hurt. :-) all of these stories are just how my days have been going lately. i try to do a simple thing. and somehow it turns into weirdness. typical. but as grouchy and negative as i can be, i still know i'm one lucky girl and wouldn't want anyone else's life.